Saturday, July 18, 2015

GROWING UP















It is not the black and white innocence anymore,
You get pushed in,
Without zeal and intention
Into a realm where the people
Change into strangers without words
And move in and move out of shadows
Sometimes familiar faces turn into
Nine-coloured rainbows
And vanish
And you see them walking in the
Same old sweat- shirts
With the same familiar smiles.
Growing up
Saves a lot of pain
And reminiscing.

It is Still the Showers

Rain came
Lashing at the trees and the houses
Displaces the soil here and there,
But did not enter the rooms
The air inside which
Smouldered with gloom.
In earlier showers,
Front yard to the heart' s intimate chambers
Cooled down,
The joy was sheerly our own,
Without reason,
Except for sky's unpolluted tears of  in torrents
Being the only thrilling aerial incident,
That warmed up the interiors
Of the earth and the spirit.
It still rains,
The pitter patter of the drops
Falling on the leaves,
Serenity passes by the window
Its face indistinct
It' s pace hurried,
As if houses are grooves
For eternally parched beings,
Who do not seek peace anymore.

Monday, April 13, 2015

Summer Encounters

                  -1-                                                                      
 I was returning and I noticed him carrying a bundle of cabbage leaves on a bicycle. The bundle was huge enough to attract attention. People collect such discarded items for their cattle...I thought and pushed forward. The heat was too much. After turning the corner that leads to my house, I noticed the same man again. This time he was trying to hang the huge bundle from the cycle handle with little success. He was old. May be nearing sixty. The labour caused his shoulder and back muscles to pull and tear at places. He was making hard effort. Suddenly I was reminded of the way I walk every weekend carrying heavy bags on both sides. It hurts and there is nobody to share the burden.

I could not have gone and helped him.  The idea looked odd somehow .He was in a lungi and crumpled shirt . I only stood at the gate and watched, until he had been able to complete his task. He went away satisfied. I came away satisfied that I lent my spirit to him during the process of lifting. 



                                    -2-

Travelling by bus in summer can be both pleasant and unpleasant. With foolishly romantic people like me, the hot air entering through the gaping windows of an ordinary bus opens up pages from the long lost years, childhood, some villages and mad escapades with neighbourhood friends and the seeming discomfort turns into a strange comfort which is inexplicable. 


The bus I got into was fifteen minutes due to leave for my hometown. The vehicle was rather empty except back seat passengers. A little later a thin fair girl with a sharp yet pleasant face entered. "Is it already time for the bus to leave?" , she asked. I nodded in affirmative and wanted to know if she wanted something. She wanted to get down and buy cold drinks but chose otherwise when the driver appeared in his seat. I took out my water bottle and offered her which she returned after almost emptying. Just then a lady, probably in her fifties, entered and stood near us. We were comfortably seated and the window seat was vacant. She made no effort to reach that seat and kept looking at us. She had a fair and pretty face. "Will you push to that side a little?" She asked. "I have to get down on the way."I said. I had no intention of getting up from that seat. First of all, I enjoyed sitting close to the entrance with the plenty of light and the breeze getting in. Besides, I had to get down half way through the route of the bus and I knew how uncomfortable it was to push past passengers and come out when the stoppage was reached. The lady was quite healthy and she had no reason to expect our seat wnd salhen she had arrived late. She looked confused and unhappy and looked at the thin girl. " Move a little",she told her in a rueful voice. The girl looked at her for a while and got up to the window seat. The lady looked more disappointed and pushed by my side to settle down. She was clutching at her bag and polythene. 


"Shall I put your bag in the overhead luggage space? You will feel comfortable. " I asked sensing her discomfort. " No, no, I am okay, you sit comfortably. " she told in an angry voice. I understood that she had wanted to take my seat. I fell silent. Three miles into the outskirts of the city, vendors entered the bus when it stopped to pick up stray passengers. I bought peeled and spiced cucumbers. Four were there in the polythene. Whenever I buy such things, I offer to fellow passengers as I cannot eat four of them alone. When I offered the lady one, she furiously protested and refused. When I offered the girl one, she readily took the smallest one and went back to the song playing in her smartphone. I offered the lady a second time. This time, she hesitated for a moment and picked up one. I  finished mine while watching them eat from the corner of my eye and sat back relieved. The lady looked calm now. 


The conductor stretched his hand to take the empty polythene and offered me water to wash my hands. I sat back and closed my eyes.


Love is the solution to all sorts of discontentment. The warm wind whispered beating against my face . I hated myself  for feeling self-satisfied. When will I learn to be purely selfless and modest? I reprimanded myself. All was well with the world while the sun burned with its innate fury outside.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

PK and Other Such Stories


Happened to watch Amir Khan's latest fil PK at home. The movie is different. Intelligently written, it tried to expose the hypocrisy behind using religion as a tool to exploit god-fearing Indian mass.The film is not only enjoyable but also comes with a strong message. 

Films like Happy New Year, Action Jackson and Happy ending etc entertain the mass without having any touch with reality and logic. Intelligent thinking takes a back seat. Mindless stories and melodrama are the highlights with sex and violence thrown in according to requirement. They carry the young mass to a world of fantasy and often misguide them.

Amir khan films are way apart in screenplay and treatment.  Watch Tare Zameen Per. It propels you to think and keeps haunting the mind for a good number of days. Not only that, it finds a way to deal with a problem or an issue that affects the mass. A film replete with sex, violence, music and dance may humour people for a few hours, but a film addressing a real problem is a path-breaker. 
The directors, the producers and the actors who join hands to churn out such a product that makes us sit and think, stirs our hearts and brings tears to our eyes is a service to mankind. God bless such daredevil souls who take a risk and stand for a cause.



Friday, November 28, 2014

Play and Replay



An uneasy silence
inches forward, with advancing claws,
towards the afternoons, mornings and nights,
The music is withdrawing the season of  flowers
from the breast of the long hours.

Familiar streets had become 
bouncing spring paths,
they will turn familiar again,
who knows,
The heat will burn the back and 
friendly voices will not be able to give a shade.

These deaths are familiar
but dying is a new pain,
The darkness that it brings will last till next rains,
or next summer
when again the eyes will look into the pit of the long day
and would see from a distance
and mumble,
one day the whole unfolding again and again,
will end,
and with it, the births and the deaths.
Till the days linger 
and drag around incomprehensible truths
and unwinding webs of events
slow and exhausting, 
Go and sit by the water hole, 
and look at the reflection of the floating clouds
and hear the meaningless yet engaging cacophony 
of birds.


Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Earth, our Mother, a Safer Place in to be

                                                       
The clouds had appeared
and we waited for rain, but not a drop fell,
The shoot and dust on the leaves
grew thicker and the air heavier
with emissions.

They cut the beautiful Neem tree the other day
Where the man in a soiled turban sold
sugar cane juice and chit-chatted with
the boy with a cartful of bananas.

The roads are wider now and smoother
The sun’s rays fall and bounce back to the lives
that move or run on them.
The trees are gone, all of them, with nowhere to stand
and to wait for departures and arrivals.

The other day, the hills in my city were in blaze
Some men started a fire for something,
and it killed so many trees and animals
and spoiled the homes of the birds and
the smaller beings.

The river in your village is running dry,
But in rain also we caught wrappers, bottles,
Plastic and dead fish in those dark and dirty waters
And choked on the thick effluents
That the plant nearby put into it
day after day.

The papers are telling
that we will start dying sooner
Or be diseased of this air, this heat,
this water and these poisons we let
into all the good things God had made.

Should we not then
Be done with ruining things!
And make as many trees from earth,
As much water from rain
And put the plastics into recycle bin?

Sure it makes us stronger,
Can’t we walk to the nearby shop
and cycle down the road to school?
With the breeze singing in our wings
and our hearts on a roll?

Let’s make the trees invite rain
And the blades of grass dream of dew drops
Let the green hills block the path of clouds
And let the rivers carry pure water
and make the good crops.

Let our skies be free of spirals
Of smoke our air poison free
Let’s make our earth, our mother
A safer place in to be.






 






Monday, January 13, 2014

Darkness and Light

Eyes fell on the huge building,
abandoned , dark and deserted,
I was reminded that it was just like my inside, 
empty and lonesome,
dark with pain,
contemplating apparent departures
self-imposed loneliness,
and the after-life in that hitherto 
brightly lit chamber,
vacated by someone dear,

As I looked at the coconut trees beyond 
green and swaying,
I realized that I will have to 
open the doors and windows and welcome 
the sun,
instead of dying of imaginary loss.
Someone has recently taught me to smile
and I will have to give it back 
until I am spent.

I will have to hold onto truths besides,

and wade in the restless waters
until the lies lose their shimmer and
vanish into the murky depths of the parallel 
world, of age-old lies and
handfuls of dirt.